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HEAD START
It shouldn’t end this way
Since they gave us a head start
But the only thing we started
Caused our heads to fall apart
Now we’re running back together
Back from swinging through those trees
And I promise I’ll do better
If this year’s better for me
And you’re rolling with the punches
And I’m swinging at thin air
And if you get what you deserve
I’m at the depths of what is fair
I can take the pain x 4
She said
You’ve been running for water since the fire went out
You’ve been running for the door since you figured it out
She said take a step away now
Find a safe distance to watch
You can observe this self destruction
From our single bedded box
And you’re rolling with the punches
And I’m swinging at thin air
And the weight comes down and it reminds us both
You were always there, I was only a ghost
There’s cracks in the system of all of our scenes
And over and over and over she screams
I can take the pain x 4
She said
You’ve been running for water since the fire went out
You’ve been running for the door since you figured it out
You’ve been running into battle with your colours laid bare
You’ve been running into battle with your arms in the air
You’ve been singing about hope to whoever listens the most
You’ve been cursing my soul
I can take the pain and I’m always on your side.
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Battles
05:20
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BATTLES
Give me some time
I promise that I’ll give you my mind
You’re still reeling from the battles you lost
From my battles I’ve been counting the cost
And I can see your fires burning
As the tears they warm your skin
And every corner that you’re turning
Another step you take from him
And oh maybe this is nothing
And I’m a coward underneath the stairs
But my god it must be something or why would either of us still be here
These battles are all I have
And they’ve nothing to do with you
I understand that the light that you gave
It wasn’t easy just to give it away
So you collapse at the top of the stairs
I look up wondering how you got up there
And each crime another photograph
And each line another sin
And I’ve tried and tried to keep up with you
But the war in you won’t let me in
And now maybe you’re just broken
And maybe I’m the same
And maybe our lost battles
Mean we’re never gonna win again
These battles are all I have
And they’ve nothing to do with you
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THIS CITY DOESN’T FEEL LIKE HOME TO ME
You stroll into the fire
That’s where you’ll always be now
You couldn’t get me higher
And I promise you’ll be free now
You’re curled up in the corner
It gets harder to listen to what everybody’s saying about you now
You’ve hit off every mirror
But I can’t resurrect the days we have wasted now
But I’m fine, I’m fine, I don’t mind, I don’t mind
The cuts were there before you just helped to peel them open again
And once the air got in, got in there, got in there
I got a bullet proof heart that was kicked around this town
It’s just the city let me down
This city doesn’t feel like home to me
Maybe in the morning I’ll feel better again
This city doesn’t feel like home to me
Like home to me
There’s a cop on every corner
But they’re never there when you need one
And every street ‘round here has a story to tell
The poets painted on the wall look down on us in disgust
Cause they felt more shame and like you, just like you
We are not the same, we’re not the same, we’re not the same no
This city doesn’t feel like home to me
Like home to me
They don’t lock their doors around here
They get kicked in anyway
They don’t beat their heads to beat the rest
To find a life that they know best
They crawl back in the corner
They just crawl back into line
And I get stupid when I smoke
I always laugh at all your jokes
You’ve a funny way of showing me
You think of me the most
Can I stay with you forever?
Could I sleep upon your roads?
Would you shelter me when the snow comes?
And in the summer share your gold
This city doesn’t feel like home to me
Maybe in the morning I’ll feel better again.
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Alone
04:34
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ALONE
Alone, I’m all that matters
The flooded roads, the potholes out of view
But I can see you
You’ve got a hole in your heart where the light is coming through
You’re down and I’m in tatters
Nobody wins, the fruits of sins and love
We’ve both seen enough
I’ve got a hole in my heart but the nights will fill it up
Be thankful for the life I gave to you
Pretending to pretend I needed you
Crossing all the T’s and dotting I’s on my lies
Smothering the fire
Thrown upon the rocks we never fell apart
Trying to find a flame that’s lost beneath the scars
But I only think of you when I’ve nothing else to do
But balancing the flame
It’s happening again
The constant of an end
We can’t even pretend
The strength in every word
A pulse I’ve only heard
Alone
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Coldest Shoulder
04:26
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COLDEST SHOULDER
Our love lies on the coldest shoulders
You knew I wasn’t meant for this
Our love lies on the coldest shoulders
There’s no more bliss
I didn’t come this way for nothing
I came to put some life in you
I didn’t come this way for nothing
I came for you
And it’s all gone
He left you in the rain
That’s where you’re gonna stay
I keep making my way back to where I belong
Love wasn’t easy we waited too long
And it’s all gone
He left you in the rain
That’s where you’re gonna stay
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Same Shame
05:04
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SAME SHAME
Underneath the debris
Of this silent sounding city
There’s a place where I left you
A place I dug a grave for my own heart
For my own heart
I can’t pretend I’m fine
I can’t walk ‘round these streets all night
I’m not afraid of ghosts
I’m just afraid I’ll see things that remind me
That remind me of you
So tell me you hate me
I let me move on
Cause you’re silent sorrows
They drag me along
The walls around me sing
All of our favourite songs
So tell me you hate me
And let me move on
If I’m on fire
I hope you burn for this
You’re not pleased ‘till they’ve all had their say
I’m not gone just got out of your way
The pulse downed strokes and fell from my chest
All roads lead to us not being there yet
There’s no point in us being this way
There’s no right way to tear up a page
You drink lies bleeding off of my tongue
You break down but you’re still not the one
The same shame, the same shame…….....
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The Wall Around You
04:52
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THE WALL AROUND YOU (featuring Jess Kavanagh)
How could a man tell the world of his plan
When you just leave me alone like this
I need someone to listen
I need someone to blame
I need someone to play me at my stupid little game
You’re turning into something that you’re not
Remember when I met you, you were lost
How could a man build a wall around himself
And say you can’t leave me alone like this
We had a perfect plan
You couldn’t understand
Now you can’t leave me alone like this
You’re turning into something that you’re not
Remembering the faces you forgot
And in the end we’ll focus on your crown x2
For all of your worries
For all of your lies
You curse the separation
Then you severe all your ties
It’s a wonder how we got here
Carrying such weight
You were never one to move on
I was never one to stay
And in the end we’ll focus on your crown
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Octopus
04:58
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OCTOPUS
Keep your temper
You never know when you might need it
At night time I lie with her
Victoriously defeated
You come to me with quiet steps
Over heavy land
Show me the pictures you took in London
When we had half a chance
There’s an overgrown octopus trying to make a stand
There’s an over whelming emptiness
In the palm of your hand
And I’ll keep my temper
If that’s what I decide to do
I’ll have nobody dictate how I act around you
And I’ll beat back the briars in these contradictory times
And I’ll rediscover emptiness in this burning heart of mine
There’s an overgrown octopus trying to make a stand
There’s an overgrown emptiness in the palm of your hand
The colours run through you right on to the floor
How I wish I knew you just a little bit more
So I lost my temper for the very last time
You cover your bruise and got on with your life
I hid in the hills with my shame and my guilt
And I watched the walls crumbling
In this empire that I built
There’s an overgrown octopus trying to make a stand
There’s an overgrown emptiness in the palm of your hand
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Top of the Hill
04:26
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TOP OF THE HILL
Old and getting older still
Cold and getting colder still
Love will leave us at the top of the hill x2
You’re better off dead than the lives that we’ve lived
Maybe we’re moving too slow
They’re coming at us backwards
Chasing our last words to see what we know
We know love will leave us at the top of the hill x2
This City got old
This City got a long, long way to go now
The consequences of losing your mind
You’re faced with the truth and you’re killed by the lies
I understand why you carried those scars
I don’t understand why you carried them this far
And underneath the railroad trail of your mind
There’s a place where the convalescent thoughts realign
And just before you tip right over and spill
You’ll sit with your love at the top of the hill
This City got old
This City got a long, long way to go now
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We Decide
05:20
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WE DECIDE
Fold up your clothes and take them home
They fit you so much better
You’re washed and all the stains are gone
It suits you so much better
And we’ll all fall down when you decide x2
You’re lost alone
And blame the home that held it all together
You’re terrified to change the tide
Stay in your mind forever
And we’ll all fall down when you decide x2
Forget your thoughts of loss and let the phone ring
You never tried enough
That was your thing
Forget your thoughts of loss and let denial sting
I never cried enough
That’s what you think
Took 25 years to get this far
You moved through the rain and held your jar
Another lost boy who’s face got old
But you can’t resurrect the days we stole
And we’ll all fall down when we decide x4
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